"Yes, very... very..."
"Then serve them, pay attention like you take care of a guest and obey everything they say, even if they seem strange to you, even if they seem bad..." said the doctor in a round manner and turned to the other patient. I turned around and came back. I did not understand what the doctor said to Amma.
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After two or three days, elder brother asked one day:
"Aren't you going to school today?"
"Bhiya! Today there is a district cricket match in our school, that's why it's a holiday. Many people have gone, I didn't go.” I told immediately.
"Let's go, cricket is a fun game," he replied. I looked at him. The elder brother's face was red. He was having a hard time talking to her. I wanted to be with them as much as possible to take care of them. I asked:
"You want to go somewhere?"
"Yes! The heart wants to walk in the park. Come on!" Get some fresh air." He said with a smile. I nodded and stood up.
"Mom! We are going to the park.
"I came to get the paper from the garbage man." Amma replied and also emphasized.
"Let's get something for me," Rabia asked.
We both came out of the house and reached the park across the road. It was eleven o'clock in the day, so there were only a few people in the park. The weather was getting very good. The clouds were covering and there was a slight breeze. We both sat on a bench. There was silence for a while and then the elder brother said:
"Your fifth grade is about to end. You will go on vacation in two or three months. You know, how old are you now?"
"I am in the eleventh year," I answered immediately.
"That means you have become sensible," said Bhya with a laugh.
"Not as much as you at all." I also laughed.
"After me, you will have to take all the responsibilities." Big brother said with a smile.
"Why! Where are you going?" I immediately asked and looked at them:
"When responsibilities come, they automatically make themselves responsible." Big Brother said slowly. I looked at Big Brother, he was smiling. He said again:
"I am going to die," he said with a smile.
"When?" I asked stupidly. Big brother laughed so hard at me that all his shiny teeth were visible. I immediately realized my stupidity and bowed my head. Big brother stopped laughing and said:
"This is not a joke."
"It can't be, not at all, not at all." I shouted, shaking my head from side to side.
"You're joking."
Big brother smiled and said:
"Muhammad Qamaruddin! I am right. "He said taking my full name. I realized for the first time that elder brother is talking about something very big, very scary, but how can someone talk about his own death, his own death while laughing and smiling! Death is very scary. When grandfather died, it was like there was chaos in the whole house. Everyone was crying and crying and elder brother was talking about his death as if saying. They say, "Quickly, turn the envelopes quickly, otherwise it will dry up." I saw them silently. I did not understand what to say if I speak now. I can't say this to either my mother or my father. They will not be able to bear it and Rabia is so small that all this is beyond her understanding. Bhaiya began to repeat slowly:
"After me, you are the man of the house, you have to take care of everyone, you have to take care of them."
"But why will you die, we need you!" I will work in your place. You just don't talk like that.'' I held the hand of elder brother tightly as if he was about to run into the field of death and get lost while running:
"You have heard the doctor's words, right? He said to spend time with Bhiya because he knows that I have very little time." The sounds of rickshaws, motorcycles, carriages on the road became silent. Big brother gently patted my hand. Suddenly I regained consciousness and shouted:
Why did you tell me, I would have died quietly! I will wait for you to die all the time! Before that, I will die." I started crying and started hitting his shoulder hard. The elder brother did not say anything, he just remained silent. Later he became silent. Then the elder brother said:
"I have not come to tell you the news of my death, but to tell you a secret. This secret is a task that you have to do immediately," said the elder brother and started looking at me.
"What a job!" What secret...?'' I asked in a muffled voice.
Find out in Glee episode: What was that secret?"
(in progress)
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